Next Level

As this week has rollercoastered one, it has been such a testimony builde for me of the small and simple things, like how important it is to pray every day and always alwasy read the Book of Mormon.

For the first time in about two weeks, I was able to really study from Come Follow Me, and it has been a very touching expereince, as I began to read the chapters form w few weeks ago about the parable of the sower. I spent a while pondering wether I would have been able to undestnad these parabels had I been there in person, and ponderign on my personal capacity to recieve personal revelation. 

Honeslty, I have seen so many changes in who I have become as I have tread this path of being a missionary. About a week or two ago, as I watched several people bear theri testimony in their last zone conference, I realized thta next transfer will be me, which Is something I really do not want to think about, but has casued some quet moments of serious refelction on what I have learned and who I have become. I have a great testimony of God's love and how much He helps with when I have dificulties and weaknesses, 

When I came on the mission, I didn't undestnad how to rely on the Lord, and I don't think I even understood exactly what faith was, and although I know I still have a lot to learn, I have come to undestand that faith is not jsut believeing, it really and truly is acting, and keeping your mindset positive and trustign that if I do my part, the Lord will alwasy do HIS if it is His will. Faith does nto come wihtout sacrafice, nor does it come withoit humility, but it does coem with great peace. Fear are faith cannot coexist, in order to have faith, we muct actualyl train oursleves to hcuih our fears and cast out our doubts. It is a truly consious effort that we muust do, a sacrafice that me muct make, but hwne we make it, the results are soemthign extraordinary. 

I am so grateful to e here in Sonpra, that the Lord called me to this lovely little oven of desert so that I could learn and grow and also so that I can prticipate in His owrk. He doesn't need me, but I do need Him, and I am ever so grateful for HIS trust and confidance in me.

Con mi amor eterno,

Hermana Rawlings